although it's (lunar) new years today i wanted to do homework tonight
unfortunately the textbooks for my japanese class are sold out at the school bookstore and the reading for my cinema class is some .pdf of a poorly scanned article that i can stand to read as much as a kindle. so basically i will read it when i print it out, not at home.
here is an unfortunate photo from this morning... yes... my 8am class...
professor could've emailed us beforehand... i celebrate lunar new year too you know. and i woke up anyways.
anyway i haven't written for a while. i am a bit tired, i am not even bothering to press the shift key to capitalize anything. i thought about this year being about me cleaning up my act -- and i think i have done so, i have dealt with many things and said goodbye to many things, in a timely manner. but i think it's only natural to make messes. my goal is just to try to clean them up and not make an additional mess and pretend i cleaned the previous one up. i did that a lot last year. i think ever since i turned 19 i cleaned up a lot. i had fun being 18, well fun is a general word for it. i did a lot. there was a lot that now, in retrospect, i wish i hadn't done but it's wasting time thinking about that.
i really like this on keep's blog so i will link to it here: "on patience" - i have used some of the ideas to remind myself to keep sticking to the work, the headache inducing, the stress inducing. and to breathe.
it seems the rain is doing me no good. i had two nightmares last night. in the first, i overslept and missed the first day of all my classes. in the second, an ex-lover and i were after the same girl and he got her.
i wish for peaceful rest.
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